You eventually will find joy out of that

I used to get bullied a lot for just being different in high school. And I always used to stay to myself because I’m a little introverted. I went to school full of black kids and stuff so they always thought it was weird that I was not conforming to what they were doing all the time. And I had really bad depression in high school because of that too. Now I am out of college, it’s been several years now. I turned that around and I actually make a living off of what I do now, where as I used to get made fun of, like all my art and all my commissions work. Now I travel around the country and I sell it. I really enjoy it so it’s not really a bad thing to stand out, to be different, even if you get bullied for it. Eventually it’s going to work out. You eventually will find joy out of that.

I still struggle with depression. It is something that I wake up to you with every day but I fight through it. I look for comfort with my friends or the art I enjoy doing. I just power through it. It used to be worse. It was mostly worse because of the people I used to be around, including my family. They aren’t very supportive of all the stuff that I do. As soon as I was able to get away from them it’s been a lot better.

I have a giant white tiger that I have to sleep with every night or I can’t sleep very well. I’m out of town right now so I couldn’t bring it with me so I haven’t had the best night sleep. I’ve been sleeping with a stuffed tiger ever since I was a kid. It started out as a really tiny one. Now I have this giant body pillow. I have to just cling to it in my sleep. It’s crazy. My mom thinks it’s childish. She always threaten to throw mine away when I was in college, but  I threw a fit. I need that for comfort. I will just fall asleep and think about who’s ever on my mind, who I want comfort from.