I like to think that I cultivate positivity in my life

I am recovering from a situation where I have been rejected. It is very odd because I have been working at a place for a couple year now and recently somebody came in a supervisory fashion. I don’t know what happened but they started to ignore me. They would come in and say hi to other people, would not say hi to me, would not even engage eye contact with me. I would send an email and they wouldn’t even address me in the email. I’m not religious but I’m spiritual and part of my spiritual beliefs is that you respect every living being on the planet and I thought from a spiritual viewpoint I can’t even stay here. I can’t stay here and condone a situation where somebody is not respecting me so I gave notice. 

I really wanted to have another job lined up but it didn’t happen. I decided I was going to fly without a safety net, it was more important for me to leave the situation. I’m not used to not having security. I got divorced last year so I feel like I’m really on my own at this point. I feel very empowered doing this. I feel like I’m taking charge. I’m not putting up with this and I do believe another door will eventually open. It might take some time but it will eventually happen and I’m just going to make myself available and ready for that.

I like to think that I cultivate positivity in my life, although I’m prone to getting depressed easily. You have to look at it that so many people have it so much worse than you do. Just appreciate what you have in your life.

I remember this stuffed animal and it being part of our holiday decorations and I don’t know what it was. It was kind of white. It had a head, torso, arms, legs but the neck part was very spindly. Like the head could come off at any time. I remember identifying with it, feeling sorry for it or feeling protective. I didn’t know what it was but I didn’t want to throw it out. I felt that it needed to be preserved and taken care of. And I do remember reading The Velveteen Rabbit and that really resonating with me.