I know I can do it because she did it

I had a very different up bringing than my parents. My mom and my dad both had a very hard life growing up. And I think they would never have thought that they would have been able to give me and my brother the life that they did. And I feel a little guilty about that growing up. Thinking like I’ll never be able to achieve the same type of…because I’ve never gone through the same thing.

I’ve always been able to ask my mom and then I would get it and feeling like when I got older and asking her questions about her life and seeing how that could never have happen with her and her 8 brothers. They slept in the same room. She decided one day that she was going to get out of the projects and move to a big city and create a whole entire different life by herself at 18 years old. I could never image. I’m 23 and I feel like I have struggled but I definitely didn’t have two kids like my mom did when she was my age and going to college and law school with 2 kids and a husband who worked a full time job in another city. She really did it. 

I feel like that’s one of the great things about her, that she motivates me to do and go for my dreams. She’s always been there to tell me that I could do whatever I want as long as I put my heart and soul into it. I think that’s one of the hardest things to do, it’s scary but I feel like having her there motivating me will help me.   I know I can do it because she did it. 

I had a purple llama that I got at the Texas state fair. I took it everywhere with me.  Then I left her on a terrible trip to France. And I never got over it. I named her Purple Llama because she was a purple llama. She was there for me when I got into trouble. When I was mad at my mom I would go into my room and it would just be me and my purple llama.