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I basically stood in that line and realized that I don’t want to be there

By December 6, 2016December 8th, 2016Perfect Reject Stories • Tattered Torn and Loved •

are suppose to be told. When I was younger I really didn't really want to be like the common person that played with Barbie dolls or doll houses and make up. A lot of the girls seem to act like that, about looks and not so much about personality. One day I came to a conclusion that instead of doing all that kind of stuff, how about if I learn something different, either play video games, the piano or get a pet hedgehog, which I have. Once I started taking piano lessons, I was pretty good at the time. I used to do practice at least an hour every day or so. It was on the expensive side, I think it was $100 for four lessons a month. Because my parents were not home all the time they didn't see much work done and didn't want to spend this much money, “if you're not going to do anything.” I took that really hard and thought, if they're not going to see it then why bother. Because of an event that happened in January 2016 I basically shut down the whole learning process of piano. Eventually I got to the point of why let others tell you what to do because they don't control what you do. It's not their problem. Eventually I got back into the habit of playing piano but not taking lessons, that is expensive. People really thought I was weird at the time. I didn't much socialize, "oh, there's an outcast over there, ignore her." I eventually met people who were actually like me. They played video games, they go to concerts. That is me, there's my squad. Soon as people are born they already have their future written out in a story. They're going to grow up and be like this and that's how it's going to be. I basically stood in that line and realized that I don't want to be there. I'm going to be a musician or something or a computer engineer, not some make up artist. Basically do what you do and don't let others tell you what to do because they are not you. I have many stuffed animals in my life. My first Sonic plushy I ever got which was from Knott's Berry Farm. I gave him a name but I can't remember it now. He was always there through thick and thin. I had a lot of problems at school. Every time I went home I basically sat on my bed with it. Without a companion it's kind of weird just being there. Celebrate difference and Celebrate diversity.

“I basically stood in that line and realized that I don’t want to be there”

Most people think that girls we’re supposed to be the common stay at home girl and do what they are suppose to be told. When I was younger I really didn’t really want to be like the common person that played with Barbie dolls or doll houses and make up. A lot of the girls seem to act like that, about looks and not so much about personality. One day I came to a conclusion that instead of doing all that kind of stuff, how about if I learn something different, either play video games, the piano or get a pet hedgehog, which I have. Once I started taking piano lessons, I was pretty good at the time. I used to do practice at least an hour every day or so. It was on the expensive side, I think it was $100 for four lessons a month. Because my parents were not home all the time they didn’t see much work done and didn’t want to spend this much money, “if you’re not going to do anything.”

I took that really hard and thought, if they’re not going to see it then why bother. Because of an event that happened in January 2016 I basically shut down the whole learning process of piano.

Eventually I got to the point of why let others tell you what to do because they don’t control what you do. It’s not their problem. Eventually I got back into the habit of playing piano but not taking lessons, that is expensive.

People really thought I was weird at the time. I didn’t much socialize, “oh, there’s an outcast over there, ignore her.” I eventually met people who were actually like me. They played video games, they go to concerts. That is me, there’s  my squad.

Soon as people are born they already have their future written out in a story. They’re going to grow up and be like this and that’s how it’s going to be. I basically stood in that line and realized that I don’t want to be there. I’m going to be a musician or something or a computer engineer, not some make up artist.

Basically do what you do and don’t let others tell you what to do because they are not you.

I have many stuffed animals in my life. My first Sonic plushy I ever got which was from Knott’s Berry Farm.  I gave him a name but I can’t remember it now. He was always there through thick and thin. I had a lot of problems at school. Every time I went home I basically sat on my bed with it. Without a companion it’s kind of weird just being there.

 

~ Be the Xtra in Ordinary ~ Perfect Reject Stories  ~ Celebrate Diversity

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