“My mom loves me more now than ever and it is all of me”
When I was young, throughout high school, I kind of realize that I never found boys really attractive and I thought there was something wrong with me because I never had a boyfriend. My parents and my family would say “why don’t you have a boyfriend, you are so pretty”? One night I just cried in my room because I realized that I do like women and I like girls a lot. It was hard for me to come out to tell my mom, especially, because she was totally against it. I know she loves me and my family supports me in every single way. It was really hard to come out because I was in denial for so long. I just wanted my parents happy and being gay felt like it was really disappointing to them because my parents do want grandkids and different things but I know being where we are now, a different generation, there are different ways for me to have kids.
As hard as it was for me to come out I’m glad that I did because my mom loves me more now than ever and it is all of me. My whole family knows and there is nothing but support for me.
It has made me feel like I can embrace who I am as a person. I don’t have to pretend. I don’t have to act like I like guys or anything like that.
I have a stuffed turtle. I got him from the Virgin Islands and he has huge big eyes and I named him Ojos. He’s so different. His eyes represent my heart, His eyes are the biggest part on his body and I believe my heart is my biggest part on my body. I love him just as much as he loves me just like my family. He brought a lot of comfort at night when I would be upset at myself, be down on myself. I would hold him and feel much better.