It’s nice that they want to hang out with me but it’s weird for me

As an exchange student I went to Finland and automatically I was kind of weird because I was from the US. When I came back from Finland my friends, they weren’t my friends anymore. I knew them and I would see them around school but they didn’t say hi anymore. I started taking college classes while I was still in high school so that made it worse, kind of, because I didn’t know anyone in college. So I didn’t have anyone to hang out with. 

It was hard to make friends again because I was used to not having any. I feel a little weird. I have friends again and I don’t know what to do. They go to parties on the weekends and stuff and I don’t go. I’ll stay home and do homework and that’s OK with me. They want me to go out but I don’t. I feel weird because I’m not used to having friends anymore. It’s nice that they want to hang out with me but it’s weird for me. 

I have a bear from my grandma and I brought it here with me because it was my favorite. It doesn’t have a name it’s just Bear. I got it when I was 10. I used to sleep with it. I use it as a pillow. It reminds me of when I was little when everything was fun. I didn’t have to worry about paying bills.