To pretend to be someone else, not be myself, has always been my thing

It all started when I was in kindergarten. First day of kindergarten, never saw myself as better than anyone else, I still don’t. When I walked in, I saw all these strange kids that I’ve never seen before. I looked around and noticed that I was very different. I knew then I was not meant to fit in. It was natural to me. It was a weird feeling. I felt so out of place and when I looked around everyone seemed so happy to meet other people and I was off in my own little corner. I think I knew then that I was an introvert. I knew no matter where I was I never was going to be comfortable and kind of do my own thing.

Believe it or not I do a lot of acting. Halloween, dressing up has always been a thing of mine ever since I was a kid. So being able to pretend to be someone else, not be myself has always been my thing and interesting to me.

I never really had a stuffed animal that I cuddled with or slept with as a kid. But oddly enough one of my ex-girlfriends had a stuffed animal that she had when she was a kid and it was a bear. His name was Beary. He would always get sick so she would always perform surgery on him. He was all stitched up. She took it seriously. I always thought it was weird but at the same time I would pretend to take it seriously. She would lend me Beary. He was really the only stuffed animal I ever cuddled with. And I was 22, 23 years old.